two pills and a slap across my face

so foto is finally retaking over my life.
im very happy about that.
ive been printing a ton, going to exhibits, and went to a panel discussion today.
i also joined fotolog.com.

i saw alexey titarenko's new gallery showing, "havana sketches."
it was really really good.
his sepia toning was so mild that i thought he had printed on warm tone paper.
i also got to see his st. petersburg stuff which i have been dying to see.
i was in awe.
ive never felt that way looking at pictures.
i have to meet him.

i walked around for the last two hours or so with jen just catchin up.

i got a lot done today.
i sent alexandra a late birthday package and
i bought a refill for my monte blanc pen and
i went to two skateshops and
i went to a fotografia panel and
i went to class which was amazing and
i found out about good stuff for dying my hair and
i bought two skinny ties which i will post later and
i bought three mini tie dye wallet things for two bucks each and
i talked to the woman who made them who is from nepal and
i downloaded the muse discography and
i got litebulbs and
i got food and
i looked at shoes and
i returned my library books now that my ingo class is done and
i mailed bailey a note and
i sent out a few emails and
i pressed my prints and
i dont have my list with me for all the things i crossed off today.

i was supposed to see emily tonite and hang out at her studio but she got too tired.
no worrys because we mite later this weekend.

i have two lsu friends coming to chill in the city on saturday but no molly and no aline which sucks.

i need to write a foto response paper and read a foto article in the morning and then print and then go to class and then go to 'i am sexual' to win the rabbit and eat a cake that looks like a big set of breasts and then something else i think but i cant remember.



i miss kissing.
just nice kissing.

illegitimus non carborundum est

my favorite from this weeks postsecret



illegitimus non carborundum est

so far today...

(the streak was red)

i woke up at seven
had a good shower
saw that it was fifty-five out
put on a killer outfit
had an ok omelette and really good cookie crisps
bought two grosses of eclipse gum
read for class went to class
listened to the gurl next to me say that sterilization, which she later specified to me as 'tubal litigation,' is the number one form of birth control in the us
realized i read the two wrong assignments for class
got out of class
talked to my teacher about my role on the panel tonite regarding contemporary feminism
burned a cd for alexandra
changed clothes because now its seventy
am about to leave to send a package to italia
and am going to view alexey titarenkos echibit on fifty-seventh street.

so far...so good.

illegitimus non carborundum est

for my second project
not even close to done though
thought id share though
ciao per adesso.





'ifoundaboxofsharpobjectsohwhatabeautifulthing...'

illegitimus non carborundum est

spears1122

i got to talk to alexis last nite. that was really nice.
i miss her.
even though ive seen her about four times in my life, they were all stellar times and just thinking about the fact that shes not around, even though i really never see her anyways, is depressing. but nice. because missing her means she counts.

mine is recomplicated, too.

illegitimus non carborundum est

...world...hold on...

it mite have taken me about two hours tonite and ways to many days before
but i finally asked how complicated are we?

its like every weight got lifted off, just by asking.
its like finally i can push past that brittled candy like barrier and just talk to her and actually do something about us.

she didnt have much to say.
im glad though.
because i just needed to know that i had the confidence to ask, to say,
to wonder out loud.
and she was ok with it.
its not quite as delicate as i thought.

on the other hand the former other lover has built a wall of words and hate.
as much as i had never wished that to come about,
im glad.
again.
there is no contest in my mind.
there is no longer a real choice to make.
i did nothing wrong.
i didnt do anything wrong when i was in italy but i still stepped past the boundaries of love.
this time, i didnt step the wrong way or break any rules.
i was better.
and i am still hated.
and im glad.
because now there is no question.

but will i get the chance to see the possible revival into fruition?
probably not.
not because it wont happen.
but probably because
i wont be around for it to happen.

this was my favorite from post secret today.


thats kinda how i feel.
and im glad.
again.

illegitimus non carborundum est

it only happens one in a hundred when your name is at the top.
but on that hundredth time i could die inside
because it
feels so good.
so this morning
i died.

illegitimus non carborundum est