you know what, i think were growing up...

24.5.07

this atlanta thing isnt working out.
and in the worst kind of way.

i think im gunna stick it out until i have enough money for a plane ticket and a few weeks rent somewhere cheap.
i think im gunna talk to financial aid about how i can pay for school myself.

i think i need to be twenty years old and do things for myself.


jaclyn's was great.
were great. were in intense.
i like it.
the song before, the it hurts, was sort of in reference to alexandra but also just stuff i had been listening to.
she is forcing her way into seeing me in atlanta and i am allowing her to do so.
but now shes being condescending and not fun again.
i dont want her to come again.
but i cant do that.
shell hate me.
i cant have that.
i dont know why but i cant.
i told her i wouldnt.

im terrible.
but im not.
what am i doing?

i cant be here anymore.

this weeks postsecrets are amazing.

illegitimus non carborundum est

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

i feel like i need to be 20 and do things for myself as well... problem is, i live in australia. but only for 2 more weeks.
i'm in the city june 19-23. and once a week thereafter(if things go well with the boy). and you?
and i'm glad you had fun.
and if you don't want her back, then don't have her back. it might be painful but since when do you shy away... it's worth it to get what you want.